What does your “Hmm” collection say about your interests as a person, an artist, and an educator?
First, I want to say that I have not been in my school building since Monday afternoon, so I did this based on my area at home, since it required photos, although I no longer have an official office or studio space. I moved from a shared marital home because it was no longer safe. These are the things I felt were most important when I moved, and they have a place in a kind of make-shift work space. I think my collection gives a glimpse into my darkness. I tend to be interested in things that relate to the way I feel and things I’ve overcome, and unfortunately, there is a lot of trauma there. But, I also think that these things are a reminder of how far I’ve come in spite of. I don’t deny the sadness or the bit of darkness; I allow it to have its space, but I don’t let it take over, and I move through it. So, it makes sense that it’s in my studio space. In contrast, some things about my son are bright and colorful, and I think this very much shows that he is the brightness in my life. These things combine really reflect me as an artist; my art is either vibrant and whimsical or monochromatic and desolate. My students have noticed this about me. My classroom is full of color, and my favorite colors are light aqua and pastel purple; it reflects this. However, they ask me why all I wear is black and have so many “emo” things. Several of them have asked me if I was “emo” when I was in school. They are hilarious, but have 100% figured me out.
Which object in the collection is your favorite, why?
In my collection, I do have a couple of favorites and those would be the artwork made by my son, who is only 5 years old, and my freaky little yarn creatures. Those were originally Halloween decorations, but I decided to keep them out because quite honestly, they just make me feel really happy. I can’t give you an exact reason as to why, but they do. As for the artwork by my son, up until very recently he was not at all interested in coloring or drawing, this was really the first thing he created and he was quite proud of himself. Also, the fact that it was inspired by “Stranger Things” makes me incredibly proud and makes me feel like I’m winning motherhood.
Which object in the collection most surprised you, why?
The most surprising thing in my collection is actually one of the supplies, which is the Prismacolor Markers. I don’t really work with markers and have had no interest in the past, but I received them as a gift and had planned to give them away to one of my advanced students. However, I later received a “Things I want to Say at Work, but Can’t” coloring book for Christmas and decided to try the markers out as the pages were incredibly thick. I came to appreciate them and although still not a favorite, I do plan to continue working with them to get more familiar.
What did you learn by collecting objects from your space, perhaps that was different than simply observing and reflecting as you did in the first Teaching/Research Setting blog post assignment?
I think that it allowed me to see what my students see, that I am complex. I am darkness and light all in one. I am contrast. Two things can be true at once; we can have darkness and appreciate it, but we can also be filled with so much light and appreciation for bright and beautiful things. We don’t have to fit in boxes, and oftentimes, the best of us don’t.










